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It is disgusting. We are told to love sex but never masturbate or fool around. To love our bodies but we have to be hairless, thin, have boobs, and to never wear make up to cover our flaws. We can like sports and watch them but we can’t play them unless they are toned down and pretty enough to be oggled at. We can be nerds but we can’t be TOO smart or we forget our place. We are told we need a prince charming and to seek him out by constantly changing ourselves and being perfect for him. We are given the message that outside beauty is what matters the most but if we have it and get successful it was because we have a pretty face. We are told we exaggerate and should just go with it when we complain of being objects and property. We are taught that being a woman is worthy of an insult… WE have to fear walking at night. WE have to go in a group if we need to use the bathroom in a strange place. WE have to be cautious of where we are and who we are with. That we are told to hush and get over it if we are assaulted because real life isn’t like the crime shows and it is harder to convict the assaulter. That female artists are degraded and yelled at in artist alleys. That you are judged just by how you wear a t-shirt.
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I really need to get this off my chest!!!
As I sit here tonight with such a heavy heart and my thoughts racing I can’t seem to get my dog out of my head at all I think about her every single day but tonight is just such a low night for me because my anxiety and depression is eating me alive at the moment I don’t even bother to let anyone know I’m not okay or I’m getting bad again simply because if I just don’t talk about it and hide it maybe I’ll just wake up and it’ll be gone but it never goes away it just gets worse but I do everything to put a smile on and keep moving along like everything is fine but in reality it’s not fine at all it’s killing me more and more losing my dog she was there through my worst hell she even saved my life a few times and she probably doesn’t even know it she meant everything to me and she will probably spend the rest her dog years thinking I don’t love or miss her and I just abandoned her she probably feels so alone and is probably still waiting for me to come back and get her and it kills me because she will never know how much it’s killing me to be without her all she will ever feel is abandoned and unloved by me I hate myself for doing what I had to do and she will never be able to be see how hard I’ve worked on myself and how good I’ve done and I wish she just could see all the good since she helped me through the lowest time of my life she was there through it all she was a super dog and she will always be one of my biggest hero’s and I hope one day I can be at peace with myself for just disappearing into thin air without even a last hug or proper goodbye I’m sorry for being such a shitty human being
What do you do when your so lost in life and don’t know who or what to turn to I’m honestly so torn down I’ll probably never be the same or recover from this I’ve worked so hard to become this person that everyone else wants me to be that I’m completely miserable sometimes I really wonder why did I even stop getting high because at least when I was high I didn’t have to feel anything I was okay with life now I hate my life most days I’m not myself anymore I can’t write okay music or do anything I used to enjoy maybe this is the end of the road for me maybe it’s just what’s best
Hey what’s up everyone someone message me
I know I’m a day late and I’m sorry I just wasn’t myself yesterday but I can’t believe we have been married already for three month it’s crazy I love you baby thank you sooo much for everything you have done for me thank you for always having my back and always having faith in me and pushing me to be better then I ever thought I could be thank you for loving me for who I am even though I know I get on your damn nerves 98% of the time and always being my best friend when I need one the most and even when I don’t need it and still supporting me and never giving up on me even when I’ve given up on myself thank you for always picking me up of the ground and dusting the dirt off me when I’ve fallen and couldn’t get up on my own thank you for the times Ive completely broke down and you held me in your arms as tight as possible when I started crying even more because I was just having a rough day and telling me that everything is gonna be okay Baby I got you and always will and running your fingers through my hair just to calm me down thank you for waking me up during the night when I’m having a night terrors and holding me and not letting me go and always making sure I’m safe and feel safe and always protecting me from everything shitty in this world thank you for always standing up for me when someone try’s to rip me down and get the best of me but most of all thank you for making me the happiest and luckiest man on this planet by letting me have the honor to love you and becoming my wife and thank you for making my dreams come true I love you baby happy late anniversary 2/16/18